Amidst all the evolutions in the world, sexual evolution of the society has been the most noteworthy. Sexuality, turns out, is a spectrum, and not just defined by gender or binary and confined as history has declared it to be. The LGBTQ+ community is fighting its own battle across the world, slowly gaining acceptance as well, leading curiosity among people about their own selves.
However, some have been confused about this and are not able to place themselves in that spectrum. And these are the ones who need to know about HOCD. This is the shortened name of a rare form of obsessive compulsive disorder, termed “Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder,” or sometimes called “Gay OCD”. OCD, which is widely known, is a behavioral disorder wherein people commonly have intrusive thoughts or obsessions, which they are unable to get out of their mind, unless they engage in a specific behavior or pattern of behaviors, to make the thought go away.
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For instance, a person might have an intrusive, uncomfortable, anxiety-producing fear that they might have left the stove on that morning as they left the house. So, in order to make the fear go away, they then drive home, check the stove, and reset the stove switch to the off position, twenty times, to ensure it is off and their house isn’t going to burn down.
HOCD is one form of OCD, where the obsessive thought becomes a loop saying “Maybe I’m actually gay.” This thought, perhaps in reference to accidentally looking at another male in the restroom, triggers anxiety and fear. Society, which has become more accepting of homosexuality, and many people might respond and say “So what if you are, it’s not a big deal anymore!”
The signs to HOCD are thoughts where you worry that you are attracted to members of the same sex, such as strangers, friends, or celebrities, when you currently identify as heterosexual. Do you worry that you are NOT attracted to members of the opposite sex (if you’re straight) and that ‘that might mean’ that you are gay? And vice versa for those who identify as homosexual.
Do you search the internet for answers about your sexuality? For Example, Googling “How do I know if I’m gay?” Have you read sexuality blogs online to find evidence of whether you may be gay? Or have you read coming out stories looking for answers and/or reassurance of your sexual orientation.
Very likely that people who actually experience HOCD could be confused or harmed by these inaccurately applied concepts, if these individuals fall into these groups, rather than seeking treatment from a qualified therapist. In these online groups, the prescription is normally to “stop watching porn or masturbating for 90 days. Unfortunately, for a person with HOCD, treatment is much more complex, and porn is merely a symptom.
Questioning your own sexuality is a great thing when you are aware of the changes that it implies in your life and relationships, and most of all self-acceptance. However, it is best to get checked from a psychologist about this as it is best left to experts when we do not find answers we seek within ourselves, and even the internet!